Back to work... Will spent all my time fully committed to work now. No more r/s for the time being coz i dun know if i can still take anymore pain. Tring to move on & ask myself last night, even im very sad, couldnt sleep and eat well will it change everything? Will the person feel sad also making this decision? It definitely wont change anything but i don't know if he will feel sad or not.

My mind is full of memories since last night.... prawn fishing, zirca, play, sentosa siloso beach resort, cemetery & also our lovely home... Though its always with frens around when we are out, the only thing i can do is to just imagine we are alone. Remember the time spent in siloso resort celebrating his bday. Thats the most memorable moment. Soaking in jaccuzi & sun tanning, just the 2 of us during the first 2 days. Cemetery during the hungry ghost festival, although im scared to go, but i know i will be ok as long im with him. Our home, watching him playing computer, eat what he cook, do house chores together, watch show together & lastly holding hand before sleep every night without miss.... Seeing Him smile & be happy is what i want during that period of time. Share his stress, lend him my listening ears, care for him & love him.... I never expect to end it so fast, but it still did... (27/08/2009 - 08/02/2010).

Coz its very sad to receive pains & tears as a gift in return when you love the person.....

Time heals everything? Definitely, but its only when will it be. We will just remain as good frens bah if he treat me as one. The only same goal that we can do together now is to close more deals in our work. I will definitely push myself all into work. ALBIN CHER !!!! WAKE UP & WORK !!!!