Havent been blogging for quite some time. Well, as usual busy with work & partying with friends. Met someone new... Well he is mature & stable enough, knows what he wants & everything. We had comes to agreement bout the open relationship topic & both parties agreed. Well, so what even if i don't agreed.... Till the end there will only be lies & betrayed. Just enjoy what i have now, enjoy the process of being pampered....

Had a sudden mood swing out of sudden this evening. I know i shoudn't but it still happen.... Smiling, laughing & joking all the way but still will keep things going like what it is regardless of whats underneath....

A motto for myself - No one will ever love you more than yourself.....

A Month Had Past & Yet Im Still Thinking.... I Know I Should Stop All These Thought Cause Its Impossible For Us Anymore. But Still I Cant Help To Conntrol What Im Thinking. Had Ask Myself If There Is One More Chance, Will I Still Accept It? Honestly Speaking, I Wish We Could But I Know In The End I Will Get Hurt Again..... Morever I Guess A New Date Or R/S Had Just Begun At His Side.... Im Trying My Best Not To Turn Back Again Into This Kind Of R/S, Just Tired.... Indeed He Is The One Who Changed Me Alot So Far This Year. Change Me Into A Selfish Person In Love, A Person Who Dun Have Faith In Love Anymore. Make Me Believe More In, Whatever I Give In, I Will Not Get Back The Same. Most Importantly Is, Will Not Trust Anyone Easily Even When I Really In Love With That Person. No One Is Worth Anything..... All Sweet Talk Are Bullshit. And Will Not Be So Naive Anymore To Believe Or Take Things So Seriously.... No More I Love You From Me To Anyone From Now Onwards, Goes The Same To Anyone To Me. Action Speaks Louder Than Words !!!! Karma Is Always Around Us, What You Do To Others, You Will Get Double In Return..........

I HATE MYSELF........... !!!!!!!!!!